damn damn it..

things have been really harsh recently..
i really have no idea what's going on between us..
why can't we just be nice to each other?
why can't we just sit down and lay back, hugging each other in warm arms..
why every time there will be a fight between us?
i just don't understand..
and every time it's me the one who is gonna bare all the mistakes..
all the wrong is on me!!!
yeah right... so i'm the bad girl now..
evil girl who always started the fight...
sighhhhhhhhhhhsss........ i really really feel damn uncomfortable now..
i don't know whether its your fault, or mine..
just don't wanna give a damn!

sunset

how i wish i could watch sunset with you at the romantic seaside?
i really want it badly... =(
hope you will grant my wish when u're back darling..

internship!

1st june, 2009, Internship day 1.

So i went to work today with an excited heart, ermm.. the feeling that i can't describe.. feeling excited and nervous.. and can't even finish my breakfast...
my boyfriend laughed at me.. "always ask u eat, u say not enough.. and now u say u can't finish?"
lol...
then my dad came and pick me at 9am, because i was suppose to report at 10am.
i reached there pretty early though...
and i went and find the office last nite... and its just upstairs of "limbongan burger".
i reached the office bout 9.20am..
there's only 2 guys in the office with different room..
so i went inside and fill in up the forms required..
my supervisor told me that today he don't have job for me..
so he brought me to another department called the RMS (Retail measurement service).
and guess what i did there?
i did shading... its like shading MCQ answers in the answer sheet during exam..
a big stack indeed... and i did from 9.30am to 2.30pm.. 5 hours...
lol... that's what people always said.. first day is always like this...
the bestest thingy is... i no need to work for tomorrow..
hahahaha.. because i haven't got my ID, says my supervisor..
so i can't do field work...

i just feel weird today.. its not that what i've expected...
it became quite bored and lack of safety'ness in that company.. because all of them are men..
nevermind.. i guess 4 months will pass very soon...
teeheee =)