feels like shit

week by week.. day by day.. hours by hours..

minutes by minutes... seconds by seconds..

my day passes just like the tap water flowing into the drain.. wasted.. without utilizing it..

i filled my daily routine by goin to classes, exercise and online..

and i dont know what the hell is pulling on me..

stops me from doing what i wanna do..

i have lotsa stuff to complete..

assignment that need to hand up next week..

i still havent do anythin on it..

mid term exam in 2 weeks time..

what i've done?

NOTHING!!

arrghhh...

im so frustrated.. damn.. i dont know what i want..

and its like these few days..

i found myself not myself..

im lost.. and.. suffocating for more fresh air to breath..

some one please help me..

im suffering from depression!~

侧田~ kong

我我没有害过人
只想失恋也有名份
我太乐意献一吻
为什么这温柔会犯禁
若你我可抱着睡
连命也甘心短几岁
谁能及我
将性命也豁出
去若与你好有罪
全是律例不对
我要追
离弃世界亦要追
宁愿天去收我
也替你受重伤
金刚跟美女恋上
也是个传奇狂想
纵是遗憾收场
都必需跟你
明刀明枪
子弹不怕上
一级级上塔尖欣赏
欣赏你忧伤
就算你早有别人
无碍我争取梦中人
扶摇直上
高到共你能拥吻
别说到太高深
能自愿便相衬
够决心
越中箭我越勇敢
不屑不信不怕
打击更令我坚强
这纵是妄想
能得到你给举世景仰
我有我梦与想
多高攀也敢攀上
这份爱传奇无双
苦命人
相拥俯看
世上风霜

happy yet sad

satisfied of what i've done..

at least i've no regrets in life..
but yet i've gained pain.

i just dunno how to describe it, but i felt that im really a loser in this kinda thing..

maybe what i've done couldn't satisfy you..

and that does not bring any meaning for you..

im alrite with it..

old phrase from myself.. "life goes on"

i wanna use every minute that i have on studies,

without thinkin bout this matter..

i hope i can..

well.. christmas is comin so soon..

its like a month more to go..

i really wanna celebrate it with someone that i thought is really meaningful.

guess that i've to overcome that feelin over and over again when every occasion comes..

that really sucks..and i dun wanna be LONELY~

sigh!

and just this another thing happened to me..

coz its dad's birthday..

and some misunderstanding/arguement or whatever u call it..

between my sis and dad..

and im always the middle person..

who always need to hear them bla bla bla bout each other..

im so sick of this larghh..

why this family gotta be like this?

forever cant come along well...

IT SUCKS~

no class day..

its monday and we've no class today..

planned to do the project that mdm hawa gave for psychology class..

and so it was raining cats and dogs this mornin bout 8 stg till 10 somethin i guess..

so i asked xinhui to gave me a ride to campus..

im just very lazy to go to campus because i dun have any classes today..

kinda lame rite? haha..

okay..

lets get down to business..

actually there's 7 people in a group..

and when it comes to do the job, there's only me, ching ching, sinlu and ivan.

i can understand with huisan and joanne's condition coz they have class at that time..

and huisan did her part too..

how bout another person?

hmm.. i guess he's tired and cant make it to the lib??.. and gave some "lame" results of the results that he had done on the research.. wtf?

its okay.. our job had done successfully.. besides.. u're not even important to this group.. such a loser..

happy birthday sister..

11.11 is always a day to remember.. happy birthday to my ah jie..
had much fun at sunshine bar..

hope she had fun too.

so we ordered bout 5 buckets..

and i've got abit tipsy..

preparing to go..at sunshine barsis and mesis and her friends..its so pack at sunshine bar on saturday nite.. gosh, i've been pushed many times by the "passer-by(s)".. and cant even have a single place to dance..sis and her bf.. wish u all happy always!!this is birthday cake number 1.. mango delightand this is birthday cake number 2.. from renaissance hotel, peanut butter cake.. not bad taste..

i dunno what happened to the pict, but i like this effect.. its not done by purpose...

cut and cut and cut.. hohoho..

way back home with a drunken face..

happy 24th birthday to my sister, getting older but wiser.. thanks for everything that u gave me, u're the greatest sis in the world.. hope all your dreams come true and good luck through the years ahead.. lurvesssssss